The Mom Business

It ain't easy. But boy is it amazing. I always wanted to be a mother. I never imagined it would be like this. I'm pretty confident its like this for everyone... but its still unbelievable. The love. The bonding. The tears, sweat, and blood...er...poop. The whole shabang. The choices, decisions and constant responsibility isn't easy, but the loving? That comes naturally.

There's days that I just want to lock myself in the bathroom, soak in a bubble bath for hours while sipping a margarita. Then, obviously, there's the real world. I don't exactly get to soak in the bath, let alone a bubble bath. It takes too long to make margaritas. I'll stick to chocolate.

Time for myself isn't always optional and I guess that's understandable given I have a busy, needy, talkative toddler that only wishes she could be attached to my hip. During the day my concentration level is at its lowest. Someone always needs a drink, or a snack, to go potty, read stories or play. But this is life. No matter how busy or crazy it gets...its mine. Its what I was meant for. Meant to be mommy. I wouldn't change this for the world. So time for myself will always be stuck on the side lines, for now anyways.

I sometimes think back to the way it was before I became 'Mommy'. Boring. Uneventful. Wasteful almost. I think back and wonder "why in the world didn't you just have one more drink? Because you COULD." Or "why didn't you go somewhere, anywhere, out of the country." Or this one. "Why didn't you put money away!!? Because when you have a child your going to want some pretty expensive thing that won't go over well with your pocket book!"
After all those thoughts...I think geez, you know what? Life is good. I mean, you know, it could be a little better. Gas could be lower, internet could be free (Heh heh). But I'm happy. So completely happy with where I am. So thankful for everything God has blessed us with. Yes, there have been hard times and I'm sure there will be hard times to come, but I have faith that we'll prevail.
Who knows what the future will bring. But I'm definetly excited for the months to come!